About
My Story
In the beginning....
When I was a child I used to "know" things before they happened. It began around two years old when my mum went to hospital for a few days and nobody said where she was but I knew exactly and told my grandmother "she's coming back soon" .
When I was three years old my mother was pregnant with my brother and I was telling everyone "I'm getting a baby brother and he has red hair"...right again. Everyone told her it was going to be a girl. This is how it continued through my childhood but I never realised I had abilities. I just thought I was really good at guessing.
Everyone else told her it was a girl. This was how it continued throughout my childhood but I never realised I had abilities. I just thought I was really good at guessing.
I also used to feel other's emotions and would often get upset . Later in life I realized that I was a true empath but as a child i was labelled as "too sensitive" by external people such as teachers. My mother however said she was grateful to have a compassionate child who felt so much for other people.
As I got older the "knowing" got stronger but I still didn't really understand why or how I could do this...it always surprised me. Once when I was a teenager I made some sort of prediction my father wasn't too happy about and he said to me "you're just like your grandmother, always with the damn predictions". I didn't know what he meant by this but I was soon to find out.
Fast forward....
I had always had a fascination with the supernatural, the paranormal and anything esoteric.
I read mountains of books and as an adult have done a lot of research into these topics as well as reincarnation, mythology and folklore, energy fields and methods of divination.
I bought a pack of tarot cards when I was fourteen but found them too hard to learn yet something inside me told me I instinctively knew all about them.
I always felt "different" but rarely discussed it outside of my family. Little hints were given to me about various ancestors and family members who had abilities of some sort and gradually I learned the family folklore stories.
The big shift for me came when I travelled to my father's country and another world opened up... a world of things in the shadows, of superstition, magic and spooky tales. I learned about my grandmother who was the village healer and wise woman, a seer with incredible abilities. I learned of the generations and generations of women in my family all passing down our gifts from grandmother to granddaughter and I felt I finally understood who I was.
But one day it all became too much....
From about age seven I have always lived in very haunted houses and as a child I was often terrified.
Years later I was to find out that my parents and maternal grandparents (who sometimes lived with us) all had experienced some very scary encounters . It was through these stories and the further stories of other relatives that I realised we had a strong mediumship bloodline running through both sides of the family as well.
I had many terrifying experiences but it was not just the scary stuff . My predictive abilities also opened me up to knowing a lot of horrible things that were about to happen to people and I just didn't want to know anymore. And so one day when I was in my mid twenties I just tried to shut it all off.
I don't even know how I did that. I just remember sitting in my mother's garden and saying to the universe "I can't take it anymore".
I wasn't completely successful but I did manage to tone it down a fair bit.
I still saw spirits and still knew things in advance but it was less and I seemed to have more control over it.
However, the universe had other plans....
About ten years later I had an accident and smashed my ankle. This required an eight hour reconstructive surgery and during this I had a near death experience.
I was given a choice to return or not but also told I had been given my gifts for a reason.
I woke up with a need to switch it all back on and a new sense of purpose... I knew I was meant to use my gifts to help others and in doing so I'm able to control it a lot more and now have the wisdom and maturity I needed to handle it all.
My abilities continue to develop in ways I could not have imagined and I'm constantly discovering new ones.
So...
That's me....the short version anyway. There's more to tell, but those are stories for another time......
